On January 5,2011 Justin and his family lost someone that was more than a family member he was like a brother and best friend, Cliff David. They lost him all of a sudden in one of the most tragic ways that you could ever lose someone and the one way the Cliff never wanted to die.. in way killed at work due to an explosion. Even though it was a year ago it still feels like yesterday and they are still as hurt now as they were then. I hate seeing each and every one of them in this pain but I know that it is something that they have to get through on their own but I also know that it will not be easy. Cliff is and always will be missed and loved!
On another note, I am more than ready to vent! Err I am so sick and tired of people not understanding that I am in school and busy as hell! They seem to think that just because I am going to school online that it is supposed to be easy peezy, well I have news for them it is just as hard as public college! I have so many papers that I have to write by a certain date that I do not know anything about until the week of and on top of that I have to read the material (textbook), answer the daily questions, participate with the other class mates which is never easy, and I also do an outline of each chapter and write the voc. words. I am sorry but that is not easy at all!! So for the ones who do not understand this get the hell of my back! I want to scream and yell at them if it is soooo damn easy please do my work for me, I will give you everything to do and you try to get it all done by the due date! Yea it would not be as easy as you think it will be! I am trying my best to be able to get all of this done so I can better myself and you are just sitting there talking shit saying its easy! I am not trying to have a pity party but I am so sick of all this “its easy” crap! Do not tell me this until you are doing it yourself! On top of my school work I have to keep the house clean, which this week has not been happening because it was my first week back and let me tell you the teachers loaded us with a lot of work lol, wash the clothes and cook supper! Don’t get me wrong I am not complaining one bit because I decided to do this and there are women out there who do all this and then some. I am just sick of everyone thinking I do not do a damn thing all day!
An then there are this smart ass 16 year olds who believe that they are grown, hunnie you do not even want to get a job other than babysitting and you are telling me that you are grown?! I THINK NOT! Ya know I would understand saying yeah you are more grown or mature then some girls your age if you were working everyday after school but nope you are not and you aren’t even looking for a job! When I was 15 I was waiting tables every day except Monday & Sundays and on Saturdays instead of hanging out with my friends all day I was working ALL damn day! I did not have my parents give me money so I could go run around in THEIR truck! Hell I didn’t even have a car or license until I was 18 and when I did finally get my license I had to BUY my OWN car. And the thing is I was a damn good child, who made excellent grades, cleaned our house and worked but my parents still wouldn’t allow me until I was 18, so therefore do not try to tell me that you are grown because I can tell you something about being grown at 16! I guess I am just letting everything get to me this week and I really should not allow a child to get to me this way or let someone who “thinks” they know everything about online schooling get to me but I have just had enough! I am so sick of just sitting here taking everything. I am fixing to become the Shalane I use to be and start telling everyone what I really think and if they cant handle it well alls I can say is oh freaking well. If you cant handle it do not act that way or dish something out if you cant handle to hear what I have to say!
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