On December 11th I gave birth to a
beautiful baby girl, Kelsey Brook Peterson. She weighed 5lbs 6oz. and was
17inches, with light brown hair and big blue eyes! I had to have Kels early due
to the fact that it could have been dangerous to both Kelsey and me if I would
have waited; I was 36 weeks pregnant when we did the c-section. Kelsey was born
at 10:58 and taken to the NICU afterwards. I wasn’t supposed to be able to see
her after my surgery but they rolled me in to see her before they took me to my
room..seeing Kelsey for the first time made my heart whole again. I was so
excited, nervous, and scared at the same time. I knew from that moment that I
would love her for the rest of my life. Don’t get me wrong I loved her while in
my belly but I loved her even more seeing her the first time.
On December 12th Kelseys left lung
started to leak air due to a small hole that was in her lung so they had to put
a chest tube in her lung. Even though this was happening my baby girl never
stopped fighting and didn’t need to be on a ventilator instead they had her on
oxygen flow to help her breath just a little so that she didn’t have to work so
hard to be able to do so. When the doctor came in my room I knew something was
wrong just by the look on her face. After losing 2 babies you know when
something is wrong and it hits you even harder. I was so scared that I was
going to lose my baby girl but that reassured me that everything would be ok that
Kelsey would just have to fight and be given time to heal. By Friday her chest
x-rays started to look a lot better but the hole was still there.
On December 15th I went in to see
Kelsey that morning and the nurse told me that they was going to try Kelsey on
her first bottle..boy did she like that bottle J They started her out on 3cc’s and
would go up 3cc’s on every feeding. After that the nurse asked me if I wanted
to FINALLY hold her but me being scared because she still had her chest tube in
decided it wouldn’t be a good idea but she talked me into it saying that I
wouldn’t hurt Kels. So at 11:38 I finally got to hold Kels while doing skin to
skin contact. That was the best feeling in the world, Ive never been so happy
to have drool run down my chest! I believe I called everyone in my family to
let them know that I had finally got to hold her! After holding her I was
discharged from the hospital and that was the hardest thing ever because I did
not want to leave my baby girl by herself even though I knew that she was in
good hands. Justin got there to pick me up a little later and on the way home I
called to check on Kelsey and the nurse told me that they had removed her chest
tube and had given Kelsey her first bath! I couldn’t wait to go back to see my baby
girl. Later on that night Michelle and I went to see her and she just looked so
good and was more comfortable with that chest tube out of her side!
The next couple days went by and she continued
to do well. On December 17th I had called that night to check on
before going up to bed and the nurse told me to bring her car seat with me when
I came up that next day and if she passed her car seat test she would be able
to go home. You have no idea how great it felt to hear this news! So on
December 18th Justin and I went up there to watch a CPR video while
they did the test so that we could bring her baby home for the first time… but
Kelsey had failed her test. Me being so aggravated and still emotional broke
down even though I knew that this didn’t mean something was wrong with her and
that she would be able to try the test again the next day and if she failed they
would than try it in a flatbed car seat. The nurse asked me if I wanted to stay
the night with her, that they would set me up in one of their rooms there in
the NICU and I could actually do the whole mom thing that night so of course I
said yes, Being able to do everything for her that night and next morning made
me feel so much better. She failed her test again but passed the one in the
flatbed car seat, she just cannot have a paci while in the car seat. That day I
brought my baby girl home!
Everything has been going well since shes been
home. Kelseys first Christmas Eve and Day was amazing even though we weren’t
able to go to my mommas because Diane was sick. This year will be the first
year I have ever missed Christmas with my family and even though it hurt a lot
to not be able to spend time with them I knew that it was for the best because
I now have to think of my daughter first and make sure she stays safe. That
night Kelsey got her first snow too, even though we of course could not go
outside to play in it!
Being a mom has really changed my life and shes
only been here for 2 weeks. I am so thankful that God finally answered my
prayers, I knew he would but he had to do it at his own pace. No one will ever
know how blessed Justin and I have been and how much Kelsey means to us. She is
our MIRACLE baby <3
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