Cancer... such an awful word!

I absolutely hate CANCER! When hearing that one word, Cancer, it can consume your whole life in just one second! There is NO good cancer, they are all bad! I believe that God does everything for a reason but I just cannot understand the reason of cancer.. I know that everyone who gets cancer does not die from it and that they can end up having a long life after they go in remission but knowing that there is a chance of the cancer coming back will always be there in their mind. It is something that you cannot escape. I have been reading for the last 8 months about a little girl who has cancer, she was 4 when they found out and it now 5. She just finished her last round of chemo not long ago and seems to be doing good but is not yet in remission. While reading about her cancer in her mom’s blog I have come to love a little girl that I do not even know and also loving another little girl named Lanie, who they met at St.Jude. I find myself waking up in the mornings reaching for my phone getting on Katie’s blog site to see if she has posted anything new about her sweet angel or the other kids that she talks about that have cancer. This morning I got up went to eat breakfast with Justin, my father in law and brother in law while waiting for time for Justin to go to court. After eating we dropped Justin off to go to court and while sitting there waiting for him to get back I go on Katie’s blog… and instantly started crying… The little girl Lanie who had become a part of their family within the last 8 months pasted away because of that stupid word CANCER. I know that she is no longer in pain and is now in heaven with our heavenly father but that does not make it any easier for her family or friends or even people like me. You see last week we found out that Justin’s granny (Mrs. Tommy) has stomach cancer. She is 94, and yes has had a wonderful long life but that does not make it any better, being that age and going through cancer before she does not want to take any treatment because when she did chemo last time years ago she felt like she was going to die and always said that she will never go through that again no matter the age or chances. She also cannot have surgery because the last time she had surgery the doctor told her that she will never be able to go through something like that again because she would more than likely not make it!
I have not known granny for that long, only 6 years but have only spent so much time with her. Even though I have only known her for a short while I have become to love her like she was my own granny. She is a very caring, hardworking, loving mother and grandmother. It is just messed up because dang it she just moved back to TN to be around all her family and now this is happening. They do not give her more than a week because she is in bad shape and has not eaten anything in days. It’s awful because to be her age she has always been healthier than anyone I know because she takes care of herself, and now this has happened to such a sweet person. Justin is taking this badly because he has always been so close with his grandmother.
So this is why I absolutely hate cancer! Cancer consumes our lives and takes away the people we love. Like I said before there are people who end up beating the odds and kicking cancers ass but there are a lot that are not able to do so. I know that everyone dies of something, that no one is put on this earth so stay here forever but gosh it hurts so bad when you lose someone that you love and care about.
Well Thanksgiving is coming up next week and even though all of this is happening, I am more than thankful to be able to be with my family, Justins family and our friends. I am thankful for the memories that we are able to make because in the end that is the one thing that we can expect to never leave us. I am also going to the Reba concert this weekend which I am very excited about! I will post more later on but for now I am fixing to get off here.